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Today is not a good day for me. I am feeling really down and like no one really cares. I have all these friends on my facebook and they are people I know in real life, yet I hear no replies to my messages. It makes me feel even worse than I already do. It is not a great place to be in.

Maybe it's just a seasonal thing. Or maybe it's the poor sleep pattern. I'm not sure. But right now I miss my friends.

I love so easily and care so deeply for people. I think of nearly everyone I was close to at one time and i long for that closeness and friendship to be there again. But people get married, have kids, lose touch and sometimes there are issues that cannot be overcome. That doesn't mean my care for them is gone. But they move on and I am stuck in the past.

I hate this disease! It makes it so difficult to be happy. It makes it so easy to fall into the hole I clawed my way out of.

I am sure this will pass, just as it always does. But I am not feeling great right now. I am sad and lonely and a little angry that I give so much and do no seem to get much in return.