Full Circle
I haven't written in a long time in my blog. Frankly, I forgot about it after I got so busy. Now, I find myself in need of a place to just write and that is what I am doing.
It's been two years since I returned to Oregon. I am living at my Dad's house and helping him and Sheila when his heath is poor. I am also working on getting my life together.
After a year or so of working with my dear friend Barbi, I am now in therapy and DBT skills group. DBT (Dialectic Behavior Therapy) is the only approved and proven treatment for borderline personality disorder. Along with this, I have a new primary care provider. My doctor is a Naturopathic Physician and has been working to treat a slew of food allergies and intollerences as well as my other illnesses. It has been frustrating to say the least and expensive but I do feel like progress is being made. I am also attempting to find a place of my own but I realized that I need to return to work, at least part time, in order to afford housing that does not rely on a roommate. Since roommates leaving have been the primary reason for me moving so often, I am determined not to depend on anyone for my housing. I am working with Vocational Rehabilitation Services and buying a car from my dad in an effort to get back into the world and become more independent.
As I venture to live life and no longer just survive, there have been losses and stressors. My infant cousin was murdered. My father was hospitalized with a stomach bleed. My health has been up and down and there has been loneliness. Surrounded by people yet still lonely.
My health... Where to start... Diabetes type 2, have a full top denture and partial bottom, tested positive for Epstein Barr. I have Hashitmotos. Protein deficiency. Immune flare ups from cat scratch fever. Food aversion. Chronic fatigue. Food allergies that would make a vegan cry as well as my other health issues. It's a lot. and it's hard to deal with but I am getting there.
18 years ago, I left Oregon. So much has happened. So much has changed and so much of who I am is different. But now I am back and this woman is ready to live.
It's been two years since I returned to Oregon. I am living at my Dad's house and helping him and Sheila when his heath is poor. I am also working on getting my life together.
After a year or so of working with my dear friend Barbi, I am now in therapy and DBT skills group. DBT (Dialectic Behavior Therapy) is the only approved and proven treatment for borderline personality disorder. Along with this, I have a new primary care provider. My doctor is a Naturopathic Physician and has been working to treat a slew of food allergies and intollerences as well as my other illnesses. It has been frustrating to say the least and expensive but I do feel like progress is being made. I am also attempting to find a place of my own but I realized that I need to return to work, at least part time, in order to afford housing that does not rely on a roommate. Since roommates leaving have been the primary reason for me moving so often, I am determined not to depend on anyone for my housing. I am working with Vocational Rehabilitation Services and buying a car from my dad in an effort to get back into the world and become more independent.
As I venture to live life and no longer just survive, there have been losses and stressors. My infant cousin was murdered. My father was hospitalized with a stomach bleed. My health has been up and down and there has been loneliness. Surrounded by people yet still lonely.
My health... Where to start... Diabetes type 2, have a full top denture and partial bottom, tested positive for Epstein Barr. I have Hashitmotos. Protein deficiency. Immune flare ups from cat scratch fever. Food aversion. Chronic fatigue. Food allergies that would make a vegan cry as well as my other health issues. It's a lot. and it's hard to deal with but I am getting there.
18 years ago, I left Oregon. So much has happened. So much has changed and so much of who I am is different. But now I am back and this woman is ready to live.
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